Is it me?

Everything pisses me off these days. Well, almost everything. The office assistant getting my food order wrong can turn me into a time bomb! That's how pressured and stressed I have become; I am losing my smile...slowly, its fading. I am not exactly sure who I'm angry at. I know it's a waste of time being upset with God but I imagine being angry at Him sometimes. Am I angry at myself? Angry that I find myself in certain situations? Who or what exactly am I angry at? Are these issues within physical confines or spiritual realms? I find myself crying ahead of pending disappointments. Is it my prediction or were they meant to be? Where then, is the blessing behind these disappointments? Pain, in and out. For how long, I ask myself. How much longer can I still with all these thoughts, issues? What will be left of my sanity? To another man, it may be child's play; to me, they are the little drops that are forming and filling the ocean of issues drowning me. Dear Lord, where is your mercy in all of these? Have I not found it? Have I not sought it enough? Didn't I seek right? Am I worth it? Food has become a bore, what I once loved has become a chore. A little unrest here, a little issue there. Day by day, a callous stroke is drawn across the sheet of my mind. Peace, be my friend; don't dine with me at arms length. Embrace me, embody me. Where is my faith? In all of these, I ask myself always I don't know... Is this self pity? Maybe. Am I just wallowing in my issues and finding who to blame or should I be really concerned? "Look inwards" they always say. So I ask, is it me?

Hey girl! Quit Trying!!!

Hey gurl! Quit trying to make your man to act the way you want him to. He isn’t wired to act that way (if he actually did, he'd be considered a sissy). My point is a man is wired and configured to act only as men do and not as women want them to. For heavens sake, we are different! Women really need to understand that. If we did, things will be a lot simpler, I believe. So 4 you who think this is all theory, lets get practical. When a man and woman both say 'i have nothing to wear', the man means he has nothing clean while the woman means she has nothing new. Can you see the reasoning difference? Lets continue. When a man goes to work and comes home late, he loves his family so much and he wants to do everything to make sure his family is comfortable. For the woman, he doesn’t love her that’s why he keeps late nights. Women are relational while men are goal oriented. Women’s ego are built on their various kinds of relationships that’s why in most break ups or failed relationships, the woman is at the receiving end. But for the men, everything is seen as a goal or an achievement. When they don’t reach a target, their ego is bruised. Now that goal might be making a relationship work or getting work done. A guy and a gal watch a match together. The guy’s team loses and he is sad. The girl seeing him sad is asking ‘darling, did I offend you?’ A guy wakes up from his bed and doesn’t see reason why he should lay it since he would soon be back on the same bed, the woman feels he is too untidy and unkempt. A closed tap is trickling. The woman says its spoilt and should be fixed, the man says it needs to be closed properly. A woman wants love, a man wants respect. If a man don’t give a woman love, she wont give him respect and if a woman don’t give a man respect, he wont give her love! It’s a never-ending cycle. These are just few examples of the reasoning difference between men and woman. Trust me, the list is endless! This is not to permit some inexcusable acts from men but there are just some things that can’t change. You can’t use an iron to wash or a hammer to cook. That’s not what they were made for. #iamjustsaying